...So you might say....

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So you might say...

So you might say
how you made my Decembers worthwhile
memorable, wherever I go, in the swirling snows or cuddling waves
In them all reminding me of you

So you might say
That you are gone now, I must, should move on,
I try, but with a beard and tired legs dragging my body,
It all seems so unnecessary and unwanted to me

So you might say
this is all i wanted, foreign shores away from home,
vanity of knowledge, a fool i have been,
I admit, now I know,I wanted your love alone

So you might say
like mother, when she bid me farewell
If i could do it there all alone, my confidence
a powder now, melting under sun, next day after a frosty one

So you might say
I will be an academic soon, if five years in a life time is soon enough,
What do i teach to my students, I am a student myself,
perplexed with the world around me, always, forever.

So you might say
Do i deserve your mercy then, after you have meted out justice,
and yet what else do i beg from you, feeling hollow
yearning for some desperate sand to fill the cavities within

So you might say
now i know the uselessness of living, and yet continue to live,
loving life a bit too much, these days a little restrained,
the latest training you are giving me, with a lil discipline too

So you keep on saying, and i hear,
You keep on smiling, and i cry,
You stay silent, and i thump your breasts for some words,
In the end, so you might say, whats next, i dont know, do you?

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